I woke up this morning feeling pretty good about myself. I finished plenty of art pieces I had on my to-do list this week and I also recently posted a video on YouTube which I hadn’t done since Ginger died. But right now, I’m feeling very upset. I have no wish to do anything at the moment even though I really should work on other things. I’m just bummed with the world and I’m not sure why- not even an inkling. I have a few things I’ve been trying to kickstart but circumstances in life are upsetting. Like, I don’t have another word for upset. I’m down. I’m extremely down and I can’t seem to get myself to do anything. I can’t even enjoy music, live streams from artists I normally like, and everything feels useless. I’m at a point where I just want to cry from the frustration of having unknown origins to my upset feelings. I might nap. Also, going back to music- it just sounds noisy to me and I can’t stand it. I guess I need quiet-time? ‘Me’ time so to speak. Hopefully, I’ll get over this feeling with a bit of rest. Feel free to check out the video:
I was pretty proud of this and the work I’d been able to perform without trouble (or not a lot at least). And then I get this indescribable feeling… ugh. Depression reared its ugly head again.